I've heard a lot of lies recently. Some of them have been ingrained into my identity. I have truths of what the Lord says, but it is also mixed with lies from the enemy. I didn’t realize how loud these lies were. 

I want to change that.

I've tried to find the root of them, and pull them out with the Lord’s strength. 

i am worthless. i am insignificant. no one wants me around. my team doesn’t love me. it’s better if i leave. 

Every time I tell myself the lies, I feel how deep it is. My mind is overwhelmed. My body tenses up because of how loud the enemy is speaking the lie over me. 

I've learned the value of speaking the Lord’s name aloud. (1 Cor 6:11; James 4:7)

I've learned the value of speaking out loud His scripture over myself. (Deut 6:4-9; 2 Tim 3:16-17; Heb 4:12)

My God is stronger than the enemy. My God gives me a firm foundation that will never crumble. 

It’s hard to remember those truths when my mind hears words spoken by other people and twists it to become a harsh lie. 

I can feel the two sides fighting in me. 

My worth is not found in my failures. My worth is not found in what I'm capable of. My worth is not found in what others think of me. 

My worth is found in the Heavenly Father. He has chosen me to be His daughter (John 1:12; Eph 1:5).. He loves me no matter what. He sets me free with His truth (John 8:31-33). I have been justified by my faith and nothing else (Romans 5:1). I am not under the dominion of sin, but grace (Romans 6:14). The Holy Spirit lives in me not fear and slavery (Romans 8:15). I don’t have to earn anything because i was already bought with a price no one but God could pay (1 Cor 6:20). I am competent and sufficient from God alone (2 Cor 3:5). God knows I am weak and wants to be my strength (2 Cor 12:9). I am holy and blameless (Eph 1:4). I am strong in the Lord and the power of His might (Eph 6:10). I choose to put on the whole armor, again and again, and stand firm in Him (Eph 6:13). I can always rejoice in the Lord (Phil 4:4). 

If repeating these truths while I'm battling the lies helps, I want to also repeat them when I am at peace. 

After several breakdowns, I have had many times to practice running to the Lord. Even writing down and articulating these thoughts to my team have helped me get back on my feet. My Heavenly Father is not far away, and He wants to help me. 

I am still learning a lot about my identity. I am not of this world, but God has called me into the world. I am sanctified by God’s truth and nothing else. 

Not my will, but His,

Sarah

“I only want to meet enemy in the spiritual arena, because there I have the great advantage - the name of Jesus Christ” - Chuck Smith

“For if you live according to the flesh you will die, but if by the Spirit you put to death the deeds of the body, you will live. For all who are led by the Spirit of God are sons of God. For you did not receive the spirit of slavery to fall back into fear, but you have received the Spirit of adoption as sons, by whom we cry, “Abba! Father!” The Spirit himself bears witness with our spirit that we are children of God, and if children, then heirs—heirs of God and fellow heirs with Christ, provided we suffer with him in order that we may also be glorified with him.”

‭‭Romans‬ ‭8‬:‭13‬-‭17‬ ‭