A squadmate recently asked our group chat, “What is one thing everyone is anticipating for the race?” I had my own ideas about expectations, but Samaria, another member’s response, took me by surprise. I have chosen to read through it often and have the same ideas in my heart. Samaria said,

“For me, I am coming in with no expectations on what the race could look like, other than that God is going to do so much in our lives. I’ve learned if you press into the Lord, you’re gonna come out knowing who He says you are, knowing yourself better, knowing how to love people so well and so hard, and walking in more freedom than you ever could have thought. I’m choosing to have open arms allowing God to do whatever he wants on this race, and have us do ministry however that may look. Knowing that the race could look different for us as a squad means I don’t have to carry expectations on how I think it should be. Having this perspective doesn’t give me room to hold tight to my agenda, but to stay open to what the Lord has for me.”

After reading her words over and over again, I learned I need to re-evaluate the current expectations I have for my time on the World Race. I know I place high expectations on myself, and try to meet them. I also put expectations on others, which at times is unfair. I get disappointed in myself or others, or sometimes I work too hard to reach my expectations. I need to let go of this control and be led by God. If I knew His plans, He wouldn’t be God. I want God to teach and lead me. He is unpredictable, yet He allows us to get to know His character and heart. I want His story for my life. 

So, starting now, I want to practice letting God write my days, weeks, months, and years. I like being structured with my time, and God can still use that skill, but that comes second to what He has planned for me. 

The other week I decided not to plan out the following days with what I wanted to do. God instead put names on my heart, so I reached out to them and had quality time with them. He wanted me to tend to those relationships and learn from them. 

My time is His. My energy is His. My vehicle is His. My money is His.

His story for me is always better than what I can imagine or expect for myself. 

You can join me in petitioning God for loosening my grip on my plans.

Preparation update:

I’m over 50% funded! I am praising God for those who have felt led to partner with me. Thank you for your prayers, conversations, support, and financial contributions. You are amazing. Details for this adventure are coming together and I have seen SO many blessings in the process. 

Not my will, but His,

Sarah